teachers' day 2006

yay! today's was a great day!

first of all. as i stepped inside the school. it started drizzling. so i stood at the side to wait cos i know they would go up to class soon. yeps. i'm right. :D so they streamed by and i waited till i saw carmen then we went up together. :)

mr toh loved his present that we gave him! :))

mrs goh came in super early. so we started on amaths. so poor thing yea? 4ea was so noisy laughing away. so after amaths, when she was about to leave the classroom, jesmin and i went to her our presents. then after we gave her, after she said "thank you", she said something shocking.

"can i have a hug?"

ohmygosh! then we were stunned. jesmin was way stunned. i recovered first. haha. and said "err. can." :D mrs goh hugs! best reaction i ever got from a teacher after recieving the present. :)

then bio. lessons again. then after that. as usual, we rushed forward to give our presents. no, mrs thomas didn't hug us. :P she just said "ohh! thank you."

then history. she just went through some stuff and then we're off to the hall to watch the concert.

this year's concert was really.. different. maybe cos it's my last year and i got a isty bitsy emotional at the end.

the concert's storyline was a little stupid. cos they were like mumbling away and you couldn't understand the story. and the 'actors' were smiling away when they were supposed to be angry. and the sound system was as bad as ever.

a student got up on stage and sang a song. i think it's dedicated to her form teacher lah. then halfway while singing, she got down and gave a rose and a card to her teacher. and her teacher was so touched and cried! well, if it's me i would too lar. :D

then the finale was super fun! the performers pulled the teachers on stage and then got the teachers to dance a little. and it was a fast number! then mr gan, our principal, got some cool grooves! LOL. mdm shah was really crazy! :D then at the end, i thought i would cry. cos it was really. i dunno. maybe cos it's my last year. and after this year, my safety blanket would be gone. and i won't see my classmates again.

but still, great celebration! :D

stupid weekend

this weekend is so.. nvm. i'm getting a headache from just staying indoors. but there's no where to go outdoors. and no one to go out with :( i'm sucha miserable girl. :P

anyway. i DID went out today. but it was.. should i say scary?

i met her under my block. our greeting was already.. bleh. okay. so maybe it's my fault for not going down at 11am. so we did not talk much on the way to causeway. no. should i say, we talked less than 10 sentences. we didn't even utter a single word on the mrt to causeway. sigh.. it's so unlike us.

anyway. things improved lah. cos i did attempted to make conversation. so we were somehow back to old times. maybe a little quieter.

we bought really suitable presents today. and i bought a cute thing for carmen. and it's cute and comfy that i want it myself! :P

i really feared for our friendship. sigh..

fridayyyyyyyyy

had 7 periods of maths today. basically, we went through the prep papers and the gce june paper.

around 12.15, jesmin and i want to go to the toilet. then mrs goh say okay, and asked us to call the sec 5s in to take their test. but the door locked. then she went back take the key. then she came out and tried to open the door. but the door won't open. then she gave up and asked "help me!". lol i knelt down and open. then when i open, everybody cheered. LOL. they so interested to take test man. haha. then i haven't take out key, the guy outside pulling the door open. then mrs goh said "wanna kill her arh?". =.=

after school, deciding it's still early, novell and i went to northpoint to shop for teachers' day presents. but we managed to buy two.

i saw the hp i liked. and i 'feel' it. but no brochures :(

alright. enough about school and life.

it's so difficult to find people you can confind in. i did not trust anyone. i don't even trust the people closest to me. i always feel that they were like planning something lor, something against me. maybe i'm too paranoid. but it's things like that lor. some are just over anxious about their studying. competitive over nothing lor. i'm just, maybe i'm stressed? i kept thinking about unnecessary things.

just last night, as i was lying down awake in my room, lights off, outside lights were off too. suddenly i felt something beside me. just felt uneasy. then i quickly go turn on the lights and the radio.

i just feel, that people around me, some i just cannot trust lor. and the person i trust, or i sort of trust, was drawing further and further away from me. so no one can blame me for trusting no one. sigh.. again, another unnecessary thinking and feeling on my part.

72 more days... sigh.

lyrics

Don’t Forget to Remember Me(Morgan Hayes, Kelley Lovelace, Ashley Gorley)
Eighteen years had come and gone
For Momma they flew by
But for me they drug on and on
We were loadin’ up that Chevy
Both tryin’ not to cry
Momma kept on talkin’ puttin’ off goodbye
Then she took my hand and said
Baby don’t forget
1st Chorus:
Before you hit the highway you better stop for gas
And there’s a fifty in the ashtray if you run short on cash
Here’s a map and here’s a Bible if you ever lose your way
Just one more thing before you leave
Don’t forget to remember me

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
And those bills there on the counter
Keep tellin’ me I’m on my own
Just like every Sunday I called Mama up last night
And even when it’s not I tell her everything’s all right
Before we hung up I said Hey Mama don’t forget

2nd Chorus:
To tell my baby sister I’ll see her in the fall
Tell Mama that I miss her yeah I should giver her a call
And make sure that you tell daddy that I’m still his little girl
Yeah I still feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be
But don’t forget to remember me

Bridge:
Tonight I find myself kneelin’ by the bed to pray
Haven’t done this in a while so i don’t know what to say
But Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big old place
Yeah I know there’s more important things
But don’t forget to remember me

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Jesus, Take the Wheel(James/Lindsey/Sampson)
She was drivin' last friday on her way to cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her Momma and her Daddy
With her baby in a back seat
Fifty miles to go and she was runnin' low
On faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year

She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was goin' way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinnin on thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared, she threw her hands up in the air

(Chorus)Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
'Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
Give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder and that car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the back seat sleepin' like a rock
For the first time in a long time she bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the wayI've been livin' my lifeI know I've got to change
So from now on tonight
(Repeat chorus)

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Eternal flame (the Bangles)
Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Is this burning an eternal flame
I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame

[bridge]Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling ...ooooohhhh....

[break]repeat bridge
Close your eyes, give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Is this burning an eternal flame

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Is this burning an eternal flame[fades off]

Finally

gosh. blogger made me so mad yesterday. i could not log in. i could not even go to this site. and i created a new livejournal account. i'll most probably change blog. i can't stand blogger anymore after yesterday's incident.

alright. a new blogskin. the old one was spoilt.

okayyy. i failed emaths overall. and my bio sucks. surprise surprise. someone did not ask me abt my marks. anyway, tmr we are going to get back amaths :/

since we are talking about studies, i need help for my physics and chemistry!! man, life's so tough.

prelims start on the first day of the next term. HOW CAN? i gotta limit my computer usage now. right now. urgh.

something embarassing happened yesterday. it's all an accident. i didn't meant for it to happen :)

ohyes oh yes. we completed our ss project. presented it and all. :D

alright. had to finish homework. and studddddddddy. =.=

3cheers!

yeps. i got my layout. and it's purple. :)now i feel the inspiration to blog.

tmr's the last prep paper. bloody amaths.

so many things had happened. first of all, i got a haircut. and i hate it. my fringe was like, too SHORT. the hairdresser cut an it's too short. sad lah. hair can't make it longer. had to wait for it to grow.

biology's prep finally over. alot of us was like urgh. we studied ALOT. jesmin said she didn't sleep AT ALL. i was a little, err, slacked. i slept at ten. and woke at 4am. some slept at 12. woke at 4.

today's amaths paper one. i think it was OKAY. it's not that difficult. not as difficult as i expected. and i totally skipped a question. that one that look like vectors. they say it was kinematics. 6 marks gone. and many other marks too i guess.

today's pe was exhausting. we played netball. and when the rival team got a little rough, i retreated to the sidelines. not really sidelines lar. just stand at the hoop there. no energy to run. but i got shoot. :)

i think i'm a little bitchy today. sigh.. must change my attitude. argh!

gotta study for amaths. and finish that darn bio practical.

i won't update till

i got myself a new layout. CHEERS! :D

the flu again

i think i'm the most unlucky girl in the world. i'm sick again. not long after i nearly recovered from my previous bout of flu and sore throat. man, my immune system must be really weak. so i was wheezing and sneezing all day in school.

to make it worse, when i came home, my mom was so indifferent about my flu. she was like, "sleep late somemore lah". and just now, she just said "go and find some medicine and eat lah. don't tell me you don't want to go to school tmr". does anybody in the whole, wide world care about whether i'm alive or dead? maybe one day i'll die a loner. in a deserted house somewhere in the forests in yishun. and people won't realised i'm dead maybe after two months later. yes, by then i may have turned into a skeleton.

in school was like the totally same f_cking thing. they say, friends should accomodate the other's weaknesses. yes, i did. i bloody hell did. but the person is like so damn rude sometimes. never thought about what others might think if the person spoke like that. it's like, i don't know what to say lah. sometimes i feel like i'm just a spare tyre or something. if that's the case, then let's forget it you know. but my anger subsides quickly. i can never be angry for long. so after 10 mins or so later, i'm fine again. but this is like agin and again.

yesterday was english orals. yeps, for O's. the theme was fashion. the passage was easy, with no difficult words or anything. the picture was okay, i can describe. the conversation. i like the first question - "have you ever been on stage and how does it feel like?". the second and third was a little difficult. "what do you think of fashion nowadays" and "do you follow fashion thrends". but it's over :) no point thinking about it again.

tmr's emaths prep paper 2 =.= how i wish i will be so sick tmr that i cannot wake up. that would show my mom. force me to school or i care. when i faint halfway and dies, ha ha ha.

PS. alright. i'm in one of my foul moods. again. sigh..

results, RESULTS!!

lalala. results!! :D

actually. my worries are unnecessary. but let me start right from the very beginning. although i'm bursting to say the results. :))

during english, we were practising oral among ourselves. cos most of the 4ea pupils were having their orals today. then i was like "1 more hr to 9am", "30 mins more", "15 now!!". lol. i'm such a kukuz. cos mrs goh go print the results at 9am. so we can see it during recess. so we nvr have the first two periods of maths.

then CME. we had to do those tile thingy. we do it on wet clay. it's like wet plastercine. and the first feeling since i touched it was like, "oh ewww!" the feeling was like... urgh. then we were to get into groups of five. novell and jesmin were not in school today :(. so we got together with haikal and rachel. plus weihan and peijing lah. then our hands were like so so so dirty. haikal drew so nice. lol. a human character. i'm so envious. lol.

then bell rang. peijing and i threw everything aside and ran downstairs. lol. but we go wash our hands first. then we ran. i meant ran to the important site. there were so many people. i was reading the results, trying desperately to find my name, when i noticed someone next to me, shoulder to shoulder. i quickly siam-ed. LOL. anyway. when i saw my name, i saw something incredible. 1162 (3) D. i was like.. what?! [ btw. to those who dunno. the number in the brackets is my grade. the letter stands for how i did in my paper 3] i actually asked 4 people to double-checked for me. and here's this funny thing that's going on in my head.

me in my head: D arh? i failed? D for dreadful?
me vocally: eh. my p3 got D leh. i failed arh?
ivy ng: D for distinction lah!!

lol. i'm really a kukuz. then i called my dad to tell him the result.

me: i got b3 and distinction of p3 daddy!
dad: huh? good not?

omg!! my dad!! haha. maybe i'm disrupting in his work or something. :D

then pj got a little emotional. i let her be. cos i dunno how to console people la. she got a 3 and D, like me. but her standard better lar. so yarr.

then mrs goh came back for maths. she reprimanded 3 students who went down before the bell rang. then she called out each and everbody and asked whether we wanna retake not. then at the end of the lesson, some were trying to finish their graphs so they could go off. then i finished already, waiting for her to give me an all-clear. then i asked her whether i should retake. she was so nice, so friendly! :)

without novell, pj and i were a little quiet. cos i dun wanna provoke her. so didn't say much about results. so after we ate, we went to the bench there and sit there to rot. later those 4ea girls who were going to have orals came to chat with us. and ivy ng was communicating to us in english! lol!

meanwhile, i smsed ms foo and she said i should retake. i smsed ms hsueh. i asked whether i could call her and ask her opinions. and guess what she say?

" i'm in taiwan now. so sms better than call."

lol. pj was correct. cos i called her. she nvr answer. sms her she took a long time to reply. lol. so pj said "aiya. maybe she in taiwan now". :D

so. should i retake not? that's the issue i've been thinking. should i not? actually i nvr dreamt that i would be in a position to choose. so yeah. now i'm super confused. save me? anyone?

the 41st national day!

we had celebrations at school on tuesday. i was unwilling to go at first. but since jesmin was going. arh. i went. :)

the day was pretty boring. first thing was those traditional uniform groups and so forth. and jesmin, shiwei and i were commenting on the postures of those in uniform. shiwei was saying, "see see. so slack. not smart at all." yeah. they were lah. but what to expect? they were in school.

then we the upper sec went back to class for a supposed classroom activity. we were supposed to design something on a piece of white cloth. but only the malay students were actively drawing away. while the rest of us rot. then the school was kind of budget this year. we don't have any decent soveniors. all we have is one packet of hershley's chocos, and those temporary national flag tatoos. we didn't take those tatoos lah. so got alot of leftover in the envelope which contained all those. then SOMEONE took half of the 41 tatoos away. say "free one might as well take". ohmygod. free also cannot like that whaaaaat. what happened between mr toh and us was funny.

mr toh: eh. you girls don't want meh?

us: don't want lah. also dunno where to put.

mr toh: you come, i try on you.

me: don't want lah. you try lah. on your hand.

mr toh: cannot. my hand too many hair.

=.= ohmygod. so lame. haha. but that's mr toh. (:

the community singing was really terrible. there was no atmosphere at all! we were like uhhuh, yeah, duh. so it was like, really, cannot make it. it was boring national day celebrations overall. so much for the last year at school.

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wednesday. the actual national day. my mom dragged me out to the temple to pray. it was alright lah. then met my uncle and his girlfriend. then went to my aunt's house. on the way back home, we bought those 1for$1 durians home to make durian desert. surprisingly, it's not bad! :) yummy!

the highlights was of course the ndp parade. this year was so so nice! of course, it's kallang's last year. why did they want to demolish it? for some stupid sports hub? sigh.. goodbye national stadium. the fireworks was so so prettaye.

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woke up at 6am in the morning. you must probably think i'm crazy. there's no school and why on earth did i wake up so early? weeeell, my dad took us to east coast for a morning walk.

initially thought that maybe we could ride bicycles. but the shops we passed by were not open. so we just walk, and walk, and walk. the morning air was so cool and refreshing.

oh yeah yeah. as we came out of the carpark, we saw a kitten mewing so pitifully. it's like looking for a friend, or looking for food. it was so pitiful. i really want to rush over and scoope it up. but i can't. ohhhhh. my heart went out to the little thing.

after that, we went to joo chiat there for breakfast. prawn noodels. my dad say it's famous. but i cannot taste anything special leh.

then my grandma called. told us to buy breakfast cos some relatives was visiting. sooooooo. we did. at katib there. :)

aright. time for history. prep tmr again. and results out! grrrr.

PS. i wanna watch click and my super ex-girlfriend. anybody? :)

Monday blues

i can't get myself out of bed today. i'm still half asleep as i walked over to the other side of the room to on the light. then i flopped back into bed again.

i told myself over the weekend that i must score in whatever i'm doing. because o'levels are coming and all sorts. but i failed. today.

first is mrs goh's speed tests. we're supposed to complete a set of questions in 10 mins. but i failed. not to complete all. but failed to improve from my previous speed test. i did worst. much worst.

and to add on, she said that O's results will be out on friday. and when i heard that, i was like "urgh.........." i just wanted a pass. not a fail. at least a pass. cos i'm preparing to retake the november paper. but.... i don't know what is planned for me.

pe pe. it's not bad today. i enjoyed myself. we played netball :) so i was pretty beat after pe.

then comes bio prac prep exam. not bad. it's the first time i had fun while doing it. but i made a few embarassing mistakes.
1. i was supposed to pour the solution into a tube to put into the water bath. i poured into the BOILING tube. when i got up front, i realised my test tube cannot put inside. i was like "oh. shit." i think the teacher heard me. i had to run all the way back to my desk, which is so nicely at the back of the lab, to pour my solution into a test tube. =.=
2. we were supposed to hold a food sample above a flame under a test tube. we were supposed to stay there till the food sample turns completely black. then when my food sample (it's a biscuit by the way) turns black, i switched off the bursen burner,as in the gas supply. but my sample is still burning!! i was like blowing, fanning, the fire still cannot go off! so i ran to the sink and still try to blow. then yipeng and thulasi were there laughing. and i used the water to extinguish the fire. oh my god. how stupid can i get? argh!

i got back my physics prep. not as well as i expected. that's why i say i failed to score.

HOW CAN LIKE THIS? at this period, my studies should be improving and at its peak now. but it's at the bottom of the past two years!! HOW CAN?? no matter how much effort i put in, it always come out like that. HOW HOW??! i don't want to fail O'levels. i don't want to repeat the same mistake i made for chinese. HOWHOW?? i really wish i can see a 3 next to my name. but that is so IMPOSSIBLE. IMPOSSIBLE! i failed my emaths prep. maybe not as horribly as i imagined. but is still failed. AT A TIME LIKE THIS. gosh. i'm so frustrated over my studies. no matter how hard i try, i still cannot get the results i want. and i still got to act as if i'm so alright in coping in front of friends, family and relatives. when i get back the results on friday, all of them will know it's all a lie. a FREAKING LIE. nothing more but a LIE. i've been lying to so many people. how i wish i can just say the truth. that I CAN'T STUDY. CAN'T FREAKING STUDY!!

sigh. am i too overworked?

New new beginning

Arr. one week is nearly over. man i'm tired! i'm falling sick!! :( i was sneezing away during history in the classroom. but when i went down to the canteen, i'm alright. but in the classroom i just kept sneezing!

those ickle sec 3s. :) they went for their camp today. so the whole canteen was like, whoa, so quiet. i think they went to east coast (?). but whatever. as long as their location is not as clean as us. *evil laughter* :D

today after the english prep, chiuyen and i quickly.. bam. went away. LOL. we didn't stop to mingle. for me cos i'm a little irratated with my sneezing. so was in a rather irratable mood.

i realised something. i'm turning more bitc_y nowadays. so i'm going to turn more femine. LOL. tone down tone down!

tomorrow getting emaths prep. sure fail. but i don't want to fail so badly! at least a just fail? don't want a bad fail. i don't want to fail any of the prep. but sometimes cannot be helped larr. argh! i'm going to study like mad during the national day holidays.

speaking of national day, the o'level chinese results will be announced next week(i think)!! argh!!! please don't let me fail. please don't. i don't want to fail. i will retake. but i don't wanna fail!! chinese cannot fail chinese. how can fail?? HOW CAN?!! please don't let me fail. please don't let me fail. please don't. a C6 better than a D7. please don't. argh! but hard to say lar. my orals was done badly. listening.. i don't know lar. just don't hit a D. DON"T HIT A D. i'm currently very "ji dong". what's the english word of "ji dong"?

speaking of english. today during bio. here's the conversation.

mrs T: janice. what's the answer for part 2?
me: err. H don't produce insulin. cos the fluctuation is... (before that
she was saying fluctuation very slight. fluctuation means graph peak or
something)
i turned and asked my partner what's the opposite of "slight". he ignored me!!
mrs T: is..?
janice: errrr.
mrs T: *laughs*

arrgh! my neither-here-nor-day english. orals coming the following monday!! NEXT NEXT monday.

soon my stress level will reach 8. nono. reach 9. no. maybe 8. yes. my stress level will reach 8. grr.