Whatever

Can't I just blog as I want? Now I can't blog because others will be offended. I was just feeling very very very lousy that day. And there were so many other reasons that made me feel that way, not only that.

Other reasons which I would prefer not to say.

Whatever. Since I can't blog just as I want it, I might as well close this whole damn thing down.

And I thought blogging will help me feel better.

Now it made me feel worse.

Maybe I should just lock the blog or something.

I know my flaws. My two biggest - too sensitive, and too solo. Not solo as in I go about myself. Just that somehow, sometimes, when I do things alone, I got misunderstood. Maybe, I have yet to see the essence of teamwork. I'm sorry that I'm too sensitive.

That day, Saturday, was, bad. Really bad. Things happened, out of control. Things lost, and we will never see them again.

She left, for heaven.

We'll never get to see each other, ever again. Why didn't you tell me? Why did you keep it from me till so late, that I couldn't do anything at all now? I'm angry with you for not telling me earlier, for not letting me know the amount of time left, but it's no use. You're not here for me to be angry with anyway. We will never keep to that pact. We will never meet up. I will never get to see you, ever again. Oh why didn't you tell me? Why let me regret? I will miss you.

Sigh. Why isn't anything I do these days right?