negative morning

i had a bad morning today. but my bad morning came from my bad night's sleep.

last night, after i off the computer and did my pre-bedtime stuff, i went to bed and laid there, thinking. everyone will think of something when they are waiting for sleep to come. yeah. so there i was, lying there like no other people's business. then suddenly, my whole body became paralysed or something. and then i can't talk at all. and my whole mind is filled with thoughts of not my own. and i sorta become petrified and not able to control myself. then suddenly i'm alright again. then i prayed for awhile and wear the 'something'. and i was able to sleep. but was awaken by nightmares throughout the night.

am i superstitious? maybe i am. but i became more religous after a few incidents.

alright. about my bad morning. i just realised how many mistakes i made in my amaths paper 1. and i'm at a high, nono, very very high risk of failing. the odds are 1:1000. SIGH. but what to do? i'm so darn careless and stupid.

anyway. my morning was not that good.

but during the third and fourth period of amaths, i cheered up tremendously. cos weihan and jesmin (they were seated on both sides of me; we're in the IT room) were so damn funny. they kept making me laugh. and then weihan started singing, and jesmin joined in. soon they were singing "my humps" by blackeyedpeas. and using the act cute version too. then when we were doing our work, weihan was still singing. then jesmin said a 'quiet' "shuddup lah" across. then mrs goh heard it! and i was the first one to crack up, cos i was the first to notice that mrs goh heard. and mrs goh thought jesmin was telling me to shut up.

but she found out it was weihan in the end lar. haha. she tell him go join the next singapore idol and she will vote for him. but not to sing in her class, cos very 'cold'. haha.

aiyoyo. i really want to go JC trial. really really want. BUT. my english is, i think, gone-case. this is the first time in my entire life then i'm scared of failing english. and it's a very important exam leh, the prelims.

sigh.. i don't want to fail amaths and english. and i want to go to JC trial. :( anyone can comfort me? don't do so by saying "can one lar, no worries". try a different method. i heard that too many times and it's not true at all.