confused

i'm so really freaking confused right now.

junior college or polytechnic?

nanyang or some others?

old friends or new ones?

and again,
nanyang or others?

half of me wants to remain at nanyang. half of me can't wait to leave this place.

should i risk and try saint's andrews? or should i forget abt it and stay at nanyang? should i have another fresh start? or should i not?

why am i so freaking confused? why? i don't feel happy or relieved anymore. i feel stupid and confused.

SIGH. emergency. help?