crap!

Today was totally, not worth living at all. well, worth it in a way. I enjoyed making my family worry, yes.

And I was reminded that I was at severe loggerheads with my brother this past few days. and I'm not making, and am not interested in patching things up.

My parents stood at the side of my brother, which made me super pissed off. Thus, I went to bed on an angry note yesterday.

I woke up today, still feeling angry. I left the house, alone. on the bus to school, my father called me, which made me further pissed off. Because last night, I so politely told my mother that I don't want to go to school with my father.

Training was okaay.

Of course, I went home after that, although I got three-quarters of my mind to stay out. But I didn't have my notes, and I can't do anything constructive outside either.

I chose to ignore my mother, and my brothers for the rest of the day. I chose to switch off the computer, and not use it for the whole day until now. I chose to study.

And what response do I get?

My father sat me down to talk to me.

"Cannot study don't study now lor."
"I know you have problems in your studies. want to tell me so I can help you?"
"You are being very weird today."
"You have problems isit?"
"Tell me lah, so I can help you."
"Not wanting to use the computer the whole day is abnormal."
"Your friends no need contact you meh?"

To the point which I so reluctantly answered.

"Cannot. Exams coming. Must study."
"No problems. Even if I tell you, how can you help?"
"Where got weird."
"No."
"No problems how to tell."
"Last time I use computer the whole day you not happy. Now I don't use, you also not happy."
"There's such things as handphones. And you said before, MSN is a waste of time."

Such irony.

And I'm not asking for help, or advice , or whatever crap either.

Cool. For the whole day, my mother has been trying to talk to me. And most of the time, I gave her one word (or one sound) answer. And just, she went into her room without nagging at me.

And yes, I'm in quite a foul mood today. No questions asked. But I wouldn't mind sharing. Ask me if you want to.