emo; life

when can i start to treasure what i already have? how can i find back what i already lost? how can i fix what is already broken?

sometimes, i miss secondary school.

sometimes, i want to go back to those old times. co practices, bio lessons, crapping sessions.

i've been losing touch. it sucks being not connected. it sucks being there but you're not there. it sucks being treated and treating people you know as strangers. it really sucked.

why do everybody had the time of their life in secondary school?

i had the time of my life in northland, sometimes. other times, it plain sucked.

and back to my old point again, i hate losing touch with people i used to know. people i used to be warmed up with. people i used to see everyday.

i love my new friends. i miss my old. and it's only the end of march of the new year. and we're losing contact. what about in the future?

i don't, or rarely go out with secondary school friends already. sometimes, people in the same school as you matters. at nanyang, there's only two northlanders. we seemed so detached from northland.

why can't we be like people from other schools, who felt so connected with their secondary school? why can't northland be like the others?

from now onwards, i don't want to lose contact anymore. from now onwards, i want to find back things i already lost. from now onwards, i want to fix back what is already broken.

enough it's enough. i've learnt that things won't come to you on their own. you have to work for it. i'm trying. trying. trying.

sometimes, it's just damn freaking sad.

pathetic northland.

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rarhs. today, we're supposed to wear black orientation tee to school. 0703's attire. :)

paid off $120. i'm going to work really really hard to get into school team. sianns. pressure again. i really don't want to feel stressed. but.....

was split up today, again. seriously, i don't want it. it's just things weren't working out. no space, what could we do? it's not as if ex-04ians want to separate ourselves from ex-03ians.

was abit dry in school today. except chemistry lecture. yay! got paired up with weiling. :) finally, we did titration. damnit lah. other students from other schools who take combined science did VA before. why didn't we from northland?

ohmytian. phone ringing during bio lecture. ms choong stopped lecture for 5 minutes. it was 5 horrible minutes. the whole lecture hall was slient. :/

sports carnival tomorrow! dragonboat-ing! can't wait! but the carnival is all the way at bedok reservoir. siannnnnns. got to leave the house freaking early.

tutorials. lectures. tennis. rarhs.